A moment of madness
I had 8 months of sobriety before my relapse last month. Now I am on day 26 I think.
To be honest I am having a tough time the past few days. I had a second helping of roast dinner followed by too much ice-cream on Sunday and I was sick on Monday. My dad and I had words and he said "typical addicts behaviour...trying to fill the gap". I just get very tired of people (family) always pointing out what I am doing wrong. At times, I long for a kind word. All I have gotten is lectures and preaching.
Today I went out and bought a bottle of vodka. I brought it home and looked at it for a while. And then I put it away in a cupboard and thought about it some more. And then I took it out of the cupboard and flushed it down the toilet. I am physically and emotionally drained and exhausted.
I really need some good quality sleep but I can't switch off my thoughts.
Tomorrow I will go to a meeting.