I think you want to believe this because it supports a spirtual plane that you desire to get too. However, your posts don't support this conclusion from my perspective.
I would be careful you are not lying to yourself. I know this was a challenge for me. Denial can run deep and trick the best of us.
You have a strong need to be right and this has not changed since I first started paying attention to your posts. In fact, I have not seen much change in your tenor at all over the past eight months. I would be suspect that you are able to achieve this spiritual nirvana without mcuh change in what we can see but perhaps we only get a small glimpse of the ereal Cabo here?