Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Did you try what you did last time?
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I'm kind of half-arsed committed to things most of the time Dee. My mind wanders and I adopt ideas and cling to them for a time.
I'd be lying to you if I said I didn't know how I ended up here again.
I'm not in the same place as I was when I came here at first thankfully. I was physically dependent on alcohol back then and I needed pills to stop drinking.
But now I'm drinking sporadically, but binging big-time.
I'm fed up with it. I know if I continue, I'll end up needing pills to get off it again.
In those years that I'd stopped, I achieved lots. Now I'm stuck and I can't see any way forward. My mind is clouded most of the time.
I know the reason for it. Because I choose to drink, and get pissed at home. I go to parties as well. Any opportunity, I will be there - drinking.
I'm fed up.