I agree with many things DarkDays said. Now that I'm creeping towards 2 years, I find it harder and harder to say, think, want, and desire to be sloppy, messy, stupid drunk. I USED to fool myself by thinking it was the "red wine buzz" that I wanted. But REALLY what the alcoholic me wanted was total obliteration as I drank WAY beyond the buzz. There is nothing and I mean nothing classy about being drunk. I want people to remember the classy me; not the drunk. Great post DarkDays....congrats on your time and that you for being continuing inspiration on SR!