SoberJuly - that is a powerful share. You really have it going on!
Chilledice - forgetting I am not sure will be beneficial. I forgot or repressed memories for most of my life. Then an overdose triggered them again and I started to loose my mind. I have found peace by accepting, processing, forgiving and realizing I am not defined by what has happened to me they are part of me but not all of me. I had to forgive myself to start and then was able with much work and remaining sober to begin the rest of the work.
The past is the past. I use it to live in the present and try not to dwell or pay too much attention to things I cannot change. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. I am not religious but I say this daily, as it seems to fit in my own personal truth.
Good luck and be well.