Not only did I get back on today I pulled the whistle.
AH stopped by wanting to work things out, swore up and down he is changing. I kept kept my emotional distance until....
He said something that I knew was a
lie and I lost it. Not only did I have the first class ticket on the train I blew the whistle. I couldn't control myself. I went on and on and on knowing good and well it doesn't matter what I say he's an active addict.
I haven't had a blow out like this in months. I am so emotional drained and exhausted my brain started to go back into instant depression.
I finally got my barrings back retrained my brained and put into practice what I wanted for me and told him to leave and never come back.
I am trying to figure out how this even happened.
Maybe things have been to peaceful and too happy for me? Maybe I was subconsciously missing the excitement. I want off the train
