RocketQueen, you don't want to pick up the first drink because it probably won't be the last. You've been working to start a sober life. Free of hangovers, embarrassing actions, broken promises and letting alcohol define you. You don't want to go back to the place that got you here in the first place. Can you call a friend and go out window shopping and stop for ice cream? Or find something you enjoy to distract you till the loneliness goes away?