very sorry about your mom. I started a.m. drinking when mine died too, I knew I was in a temporary depressed state. She's been gone 2 years, 3 months today. I recently just accepted it(she was my best friend).. But because of her I quit 2 years ago today. I can't believe its been that long..I can remember the feeling like it was yesterday..the bad feelings, I mean..puking, pretending I was ill, cancelling appt's left and right,excuses for everything. Now i can't believe how much I'm accomplishing. PX90 is a pretty big feat, good for you.