Hi All
2nd day sober.
So I just got back from my 1st AA meeting... and I was so impressed with the diversity of people and where they were in their lives. They welcomed me with tons of relate-able feedback and and some terrifying stories.
I had made excuses over the years as long as I don't drink and drive and I never become violent I cant possibly be an alcoholic.... yeah...
I'll never hit rock bottom but i can see I am fast on my way.... I just recently had some inappropriate blackouts that could/(or will) come back to haunt me and my brand new career....
I'm tired of waking up trying to remember just how I got in bed.
I'm tired of guilt and shame in equal doses.
I'm tired of being a terrible role model for my loving children.
I'm tired of not being the equally supporting husband my patient wife deserves.
So today I admitted I cant do it alone and the drive there was scary, walking up to the door was scary.... but nothing else was scary!
Big thanks to the love support team at my first AA meeting and to all of you who let the lurkers know they are welcome....
