Dr. Apt.
I need support. And I have turned to y'all for it.
I have my doctors appointment today. In my other post it had talked about me afraid that I had hep c, I have shared dirty needles- a lot of them and to add to that, I think I'm pregnant. Which is a very controversial topic that I am unwilling to start talking about.
Point is.... I NEED support. I am what only two weeks clean? Only. I will find out the pregnancy test pretty quickly I know the hep c one takes a few days.
I am afraid I will turn to my old ways of doing drugs. I've been wearing a mask telling myself I'll worry when I have to it's okay ill figure it out. We'll the day is here that I figure it out and I feel as if I am about to take off and run to the other side of the country again after mAking a pit stop.
My emotions are high. Not sleeping well.. Yuck . I just need support and encouragement. I don't want to go use again and I understand I am responsible for that. I just need people to care.. Help me not too.
Ugh how pathetic am I ? :/