Originally Posted by
Thesouthern1 
Its like there is a whole other being inside of me, one who hates me and lives in my brain, it has such a strong voice, oh go on, every mummy drinks wine every night, its just one bottle, oh ok maybe 1 and a half, you deserve it, you give everything to everyone, nothing for you, this is for you, take it, take the first sip, you know you want too...
That's the voice of your addiction. I have one, too.
It lies. Stop taking advice about important things in your life from a liar.
Originally Posted by
Thesouthern1 I have tried to change, I cant, it wont let me...
That's incorrect.
You can't turn that voice off just because you want it to go away.
But you DON'T have to do what it says. It's just a voice, the voice of your addiction. It has no sympathy, or shame, or remorse, or morals, or inhibitions. It can't be educated, it can't be bargained with, it can't be reasoned with.
It must be starved.
It's a liar and a thief and a killer. Starve it.
You can do this.