All it takes is one night to lose everything. Embarrass yourself, **** of friends and family, hurt yourself falling, or doing a million other stupid things, losing keys/wallet/money/phone etc. you really want to wake up once a month feeling like a total loser, sick as a dog, shameful, and regretting the things you did/ said the night before? Even on the nights I considered a "good night out" aka nothing terrible happened, I still felt like **** about myself the next day, and it usually took a few days to feel back to normal. If I had to start over again EVERY month with the withdrawals and anxiety I would never stop! Hence, the cycle begins again. To each their own I guess, but planning for that hell and looking forward to it sounds terrible.