Hey Dippy,
I'm only a week in to this attempt, so certainly no expert, but I feel different this time. I feel that I just cannot live that way anymore, not daily drinking but binges then spending days getting over it, hurting people I love, suffering terrible anxiety simply due to drinking too much. I simply can't live like that anymore or go through any of that again, I'm done with it.
Not sure if this helps at all, but maybe if you can just get to feeling that you can't live like that anymore, that you want the lovely sober life more than the drinking life.
This is probably no help, sorry.....
just what's working for me this time.
I wish you well. And well done on the 4 months you had.....that proves that you can do this.