Being caught up in a toxic relationship is a very strange thing. Its like you are in a world all your own, secretive, and hopelessly tangled.
I wonder if like me , you grew up in a family that was totally dysfunctional, and compared to that, your life now is not so different, or maybe not as bad?
sometimes you have to learn what healthy love really is - what boundaries are, and why we need them. Maybe like me, you have to learn what a human being actually needs, to be truly happy and functioning properly? We put our needs so far down inside of ourselves, we don't even acknowledge that they are really there, but they are.
There is much more to life than to live in a tangled mess, just because you don't know anything else. Things can be better for you-being alone is better than being with the wrong person.