Originally Posted by
cleanpipe75 
The hardest thing is not excusing myself for not drinking but that those coold beers are looking so damn good! ; ( I will hate myself if I drink one and my wife will be pissed at me but still every cell in my body screams that I want one of those cold beers! Damn I am going ceazy but I havent caved in. I think of how great I will feel tomorrow if I dont drink now but it still is hard. 13 days sober today and it feels like this is the big test..
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I think you should seriously reconsider going back. There are so many alarm bells in your posts. You don't have to go and you certainly don't need to 'test' yourself at 13 days sober. Be kind to yourself and avoid this stress and pressure
Congrats on 13 days sober btw
