Originally Posted by
bellaboos 
If it gets too much, pop back home and get on here for a bit. Keep playing the tape forward to tomo, you are going to feel amazing that you stayed sober. Stay strong!!
Thanks to everyone! I qont have time to answer everone righ now since this bbq is right next door at my next door neighbours place. Our kids and wives are there and I just excused myself daying that I had to make a call. I just checked all replies and they really mean much to me! The hardest thing is not excusing myself for not drinking but that those coold beers are looking so damn good! ; ( I will hate myself if I drink one and my wife will be pissed at me but still every cell in my body screams that I want one of those cold beers! Damn I am going ceazy but I havent caved in. I think of how great I will feel tomorrow if I dont drink now but it still is hard. 13 days sober today and it feels like this is the big test..
will reply later tonight when I am home again.
thanks all again!