Lillie-welcome-you will find support here for sure, I know I have! I agree that you should read up on codependency. The safety of you & your child are the most important thing right now.
I'm still learning & working on my enabling & codie issues (my husband has been clean & sober for 5 months TOMORROW!). I am by no means an expert but these are some truths that I know (thanks in no small part to the awesome peeps on SR).
1) You cannot make your loved one stop drinking whether you are there or not.
2) If your loved one drinks, its not your fault.
Its hard not to ride to the rescue; its hard to listen to the beast inside the AH that will say ANYTHING to get what it wants.
You are doing the right thing, and as hard as it may be, NO CONTACT AT ALL may be the best thing for you both.
Hang in there. Al-Anon wasn't as helpful for me as it is for some, but it DEFINITELY was a starting point-a place to get a hug, get some face to face support, education & information.
Here's a virtual hug.....
