I am glad you're here too. And sorry to hear you're dealing with crises at work, no fun at all. Stay here, keep your meetings, even if you walk out.
It is something I would like, dare I say love? Product development, I enjoy that stuff. I have 4 interviews to get through between now and Tuesday. Today I feel calm about it. I think I will do ok because I'm sober, I have a different attitude. And, I applied. I felt stuck and apathetic while I was drinking.
Enough rambling. Sending you a hug courage!