Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I found a lot of friends, even those who didn't seem to drink too much, didn't like the new much as much.
Maybe they missed the old dynamic, or they felt uncomfortable in the new one, I not sure.
I seem to have less friends now...but I need less too.
I'm very happy with the friends I have and the life I lead. I think it's authentically me.
It took me a couple of years to work it all out tho Ven. I think you're doing great
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Thank you, Dee. That meant a lot to me.
Am I happier right now or more serene? I think that the general newness of Dad's loss doesn't allow for that at the moment.
I've got to admit, though, that reading the recollection of the wine and the friends at your dinner party, JD, made me wince. Whatever else is going on in my life, there is not a moment I look back and think "gee, I was such a healthier person when I was drinking."
I am grateful for the relative peacefulness in my life. For now, that's enough.
You, classmates and Dee, are wonderful people. I'm so glad to be on this road with you.