Everywhere I've turned today seems to be speaking to this issue of finding Joy. And pointing to just the things we are speaking to here. I wrote a small poem about wanting to be in love again yesterday on another thread. So I put on some nice music and got my husband to slow dance with me out in the living room. He actually asked me if I was drunk. Only half kidding. Is this just another aspect of wanting to feel "high" again? Or is it wanting to fully engage with life. I don't feel very articulate today. It's hard to explain but I'm starting to notice these small things.
JD, I read on here someplace about you moving 200 miles an hour all the time in the days before you stopped with the mind altering. While not going 200 hundred I did go very fast. I don't do that anymore and I feel some anxiety about it. Like calming down is somehow not really living. Or that I'm being resistant to change. This calming down is what my doctor wanted for me, I do know that.
Sorry for the ramble