Hi scaredmomma and welcome! I have 3 kids too
I was the same way, I had no problem at all quitting during my pregnancies and while nursing but right when I was done I'd pick up right where I left off. Ive always been a heavy drinker even as a teenager but for some reason, with each pregnancy I figured I would be "better" at drinking. I was so wrong! I had all 3 of my kids by the time I was 25, (I'm 30 now) but the last couple years is when it got much worse. The stress of being a mom is no joke, its hard!! Clomie is right about "mothers little helper" or at least that's how it feels until it does the complete opposite. I am only on day 4 of quitting after tons of failed attempts but hopefully this is the one that sticks. Good luck and keep posting!!