Thanks Marcus
Trust me, I know all too well I could never use just once and get back on track. That's why this is so scary for me....because if I did give in I'd be a full blown addict again, I have no doubt in that - not one bit. And this feeling I have today, the addict voice I'm sure, kept saying to me "who cares"? All the other struggles I have had, the urges, I still maintained my positivity in staying sober. Today it feels like that just doesn't matter. I should say felt....all you are helping me get that back now.
Thank you for your support, it really does mean the world to me to know that people you don't even know do genuinely care. A group of us that can understand at least one part of each other, no matter how different we all may be in other ways.