Day 17...?
Day 17 and I feel like throwing it all away. And I'm not sure why. I know I have had bad days through this before, I know they will move on. And I knew on those days I still did not want to use. But today I do. It's different this time. I feel apathetic towards this whole journey.
I just feel so off, not myself. I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of being "strong". I just want to give in to it. What in the world happened to make me suddenly quit caring?
Ugh. Just being honest. Just wanted to get those feelings out from inside of me. Don't know why I feel so defeated today, but I do.