Originally Posted by
megan86 
hi all, just clarifying - i've been drinking around a fifth every twenty-four hours *winces even having to type/admit that* not an entire one in an afternoon.
thank you all so much for your advice and support - i feel like i'm going to be here a lot this week.
You are/were drinking the same amount I was, and I spread it over 24 hours. If I was awake, I was reaching for the bottle. I never got totally wasted - I hate that feeling - I drank to maintain a buzz, all day every day. It was miserable. Withdrawals became horrific and unbearable. Librium got me through that so easily it almost felt like cheating! I was actually afraid I would look back on that as an easy escape hatch should I decide to drink again, but withdrawal is only a small part of what makes drinking a terrible and frightening existence. Existing is all it is. Can't call it living.