I would also like to echo Santa you are so not alone!..I would be woken up at 2,3,4 or 5am for sex. I thought maybe this would keep him happy....its awful to admit that you have been sexually abused but I really wanted the marriage to work. Thats how low my self esteem went.
Well, guess what it didn't work! He left me anyway for an alcoholic grandmother 10 years older...
So I have worked on myself...I go to the gym etc etc thats what I needed to do to build up my self esteem again. I would really like to go to Al-Anon but cant as I work or have the kids. Oh and a definate 'no contact'
Wishing you luck in finding your own recovery because you will find it!
