Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I think a lot of us have common traits - low self care but a willingness to care for others (sometimes too much), fear of failure (and fear of success too), insecurity, yet arrogance, low self esteem (and overblown self esteem at times)
Staying sober helped me work out all those contradictions
I'm not who I thought I'd be sober, but I am who I am really am
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Wow Dee, I feel the exact same way. I guess I forgot about the times when I also have felt superior to others, and had a totally inflated and judgmental ego. It is the mix of too much, or not enough. What I know for sure is that my friends and family like who I am sober way more than the drunk/stoned me. I need to trust in that.
Breath...I consider myself spiritual in the sense that I believe there is something out there greater than myself and everyone. However, I have a really hard time with the whole 12 step theory of putting power and trust in that belief. I personally believe the universe could give a crap about me or anyone else. Sometimes I certainly wish I was religious or deeply spiritual, but it's just not how I'm wired.