Really great you are choosing to take care of yourself, not picking up the first drink, no matter what happens. Having alcohol in the home is not ideal, however, this is your journey to sobriety, maybe your spouse is not ready yet. Get some no - alcohol beverages for yourself (whatever you like, as long as no alcohol). Treat yourself kindly, think how much better you will feel and look not all hungover and sick. Take it one day at a time, log onto SR when an urge to drink strikes.