Originally Posted by
zanabanana 
How stupid am I? I'm hurting my body. No more. When can it be no more? I'm honest to God afraid to drink but now my body is so dependent on it. I just wanted to voice that out. I'm going to an AA meeting tonight. I need to do something, right?
You're not stupid Zana. You're addicted. Join the club. Lots here that still are. Lots that were.
You probably know already the physical addiction passes quickly, a couple of days. The mental takes longer. Meetings help with that. The more the merrier at first. Sounds like you've been reading the Big Book already. Honest to God... that's the ticket for licking this thing for good.