Welcome back Bravegirl. Just about each of us has gone back to drinking to see if we could do it, but the result is almost always the same. Glad you have decided to start over.
I noticed that you were a pretty regular poster here during your initial sober streak last fall, but then you quit posting completely. Were you working any other type of program or did you have a sobriety plan outside of SR? Whatever it is you choose to do ( AA, SR, counseling, etc ) it's not just a quick fix and then you are done - it is something you need to continually work on each and every day. Hope we can be of help in finding something that works for you.