I know you are hurting, but curling up in a ball is not going to protect your children.
Please get to a DV center and tell them your situation today.
See if they have some emergency counseling for your depression.
Ask for their help finding a free or sliding scale attorney, and don't ignore court dates.
Please don't let him, and his bullying lawyer, beat you on this.
He cannot withhold child support and that will be based on income.
You won't be able to "sneak" anything if he feels you won't fight, and I think
in your heart you know this but are just feeling overwealmed.
Please call and get some face support. Hugs and more hugs.
You can get through this one small step at a time.