Thank you for sharing your story samseb. I never had a gambling addiction and I never got into AA (or God for that matter), but I know what it's like to chase after a feeling. Somehow, chasing it always made it retreat further and further, like seeing a mirage puddle on the middle of the hot road in front of you, but never reaching it. It sounds like where you are now is a lot more grounded than where you had been before and I think that's a great place to be to move on from our addictions.