Combakkid....it hurts to hear that you are living in that kind of fear. No one should have to live like this. It is abusive treatment.
There are options. Even though you may feel trapped--and, it sounds like you do---there is lots of help and millions of other women have changed their lives and regained their happiness.
Please stay around and take advantage of the education and support that will be offered to you by others, here, who have walked in your same shoes.
Welcome!!!!!!!!!!!
dandylion