Hey friends take a deep breath and slow down a little. Most of here get it that it is HARD to stop drinking for any real length of time. For some it is harder than it is for others. I'm lucky that I found a way to stop. But even when I was in the sober/relapse cycle I was doing the best I knew how to do. And I didn't drink AT my family. I just drank.
I hope we all find our way.