Hi DoubleDragons, I think I understand where you are coming from.
I played at getting sober for a while a few years ago just to placate my husband, not for myself at all, I could never ever see life without booze, it was my friend in the darkest hours until it became the darkest hours.
When I, myself, me and just me decided to chose life, my husband over drinking, I stopped. I do not want to be that person again and I fear if I ever picked up a drink again I would never be like the brave people here who regret it and start again.well done to all those people.
The slippery slope was too steep and too slippery for me to climb up again.