Welcome Ollie - I'm so glad you joined us & reached out for some help.
I drank every day for many years. I couldn't stand to admit I had no control once it was in my system. I longed to be able to go out & have 'one or two' - but it was always 10 - and I always ended up drunk. I put myself in danger so many times - but kept insisting if I used enough willpower I could make it fun again. Over the years my life became a nightmare. I was becoming more dependent on it every day. In the end, I was drinking 'round the clock. I got dui's, caused chaos & drama - and finally admitted that each time I tried to have a few - bad things happened. I was finally able to let go of it - and of the fantasy that I could ever be a social drinker. (Wish it hadn't taken 30 years.)
You'll be saving yourself so much grief and misery by stopping now. SR will help see you through the rough parts. There's always someone here to listen and help.
