If you don't stop now (which means riding out cravings such as this one)...then when? The most important person who "will know" is you. You're the one who has to live with all the shame and self loathing tomorrow. Really is it worth it? It takes you to stand up to you. It takes you to smack that AV down.
Authority over our own thoughts is required. They will pop up..sometimes out of nowhere. But they are only thoughts. Sometimes I am downright amused when a minor AV chirps..the fleeting ones. I am just amused at how they appear...like a kid yanking on its mother's skirt.
Listen to the counsel of your good self...not the immature, whiny, sneaky conniving little AV.