Thank you all so much. I guess that's the way I have to look at it, like an investment in myself. Like higher education in the mirror.
I found searching through the list of providers approved by my insurance completely daunting and impersonal. I do however read lots of Psychology articles and found a nice list of therapists on one of the magazine sites and found someone (on paper) who looks like they could be a great match. I've sent off the initial consultation/introduction email to see if we can work on insurance and payments.
Feeling hopeful.