Hey Krissy,
I know from my experience that I could never make it on my own! You can hide it for a little while from others, but not yourself and eventually it will ALL come crashing down and EVERYONE will know. It took me humbling myself admitting and accepting that I was powerless over alcohol! I asked for help and was told to go to AA. I did and now my life is so much better! There's a big difference between NOT drinking and being 'recovered' When I stopped drinking I still had all the same issues as before, the only difference was now I did't have alcohol (the only coping skill I knew) I was miserable until I went to AA, got a sponsor and started working the steps! I'll tell you what they told me; "you don't ever have to feel this way again!"