Hello and welcome to you Winter.
Have you sought out a therapist or psychiatrist that specializes in addiction? When I left my X husband that is what I did, and it helped me immensely.
I credit that process along with Celebrate Recovery (and these fine people at SR of course) for getting me through some of my darkest days.
I am glad you went to a meeting that was helpful to you. I don't think it is what meeting you pick so much as finding a group of people who understand, can give you face to face support, and you click with.
I hope you keep coming back. The people here at SR do truly understand what pains you and understand where you are coming from. You are not alone.
I wish you a peaceful day and hope to see more of you on the board!