Nonsensical

Yes and yes. Although it took me months of sobriety to see it. I hadn't realized that I had been viewing almost everything in relation to drinking opportunities. I passed up many things because it would have interfered with my drinking.

Then things shifted the other direction. In early sobriety I passed on some events/activities because there would be drinking there. I think that was helpful at the time, but also unfortunate. I was still missing out on some things, but it was for the best at the time.

Now I am in a place (mentally) where alcohol doesn't invade my planning. I don't have to select activities based on the availability or nonavailability of alcohol. I am enjoying that freedom very much.

Keep the press on. You can do this, too!