Thank you lillamy. Your post reminded me to trust my feelings, not worry what I SHOULD feel like. Yeah, the smell of alcohol makes me anxious for very valid reasons. I spoke to the man tonight about my history and as it turns out also spent some time in Al-Anon as he had a run in with an Alcoholic a few years back. Jeez, is everyone touched by addiction? Seems so. He says he has a shot or two, two or three times a week, but it's not important, or a big deal; and not worth upsetting me. So, he says when and if I am ready to drink again to let him know, but in the meantime he has no problem giving it up. It felt good to speak my mind and have a relaxed and compassionate response. However, I still am nervous because I am not used to people telling the truth. That is why I am taking this relationship slow. Not just drinking issues, but to find out via friendship first (before romance) how safe and comfortable I feel and if he is consistent and steady.