Oh Fandy. I apologize for coming off nonchalant. I don't downplay in my own mind what I have done. If I hadn't been so tired, I would have drank into the blackout stage. Also in the front of my mind, my husband telling me I'm a mean drunk. I don't want to be mean. This is very serious to me. Ok. Time to come clean?? I was so nervous in the car, I had taken a Xanax earlier in the day. It was that, or continue to bitch about my husbands driving for 9 hours. I'm sure that contributed to my exhaustion. Yes this is serious.