I feel much more comfortable with Mike's take on this step rather than the exact statement. I hated God for a long time. I begged him on my knees to help me or fix things etc. And felt ignored or abandoned. How else was I supposed to feel as a child? So, as an adult at this stage of my life and recovery I had to come up with a different definition and understanding of God in order to keep my belief in a single creator. That God is not an interventionist God.