6 Hour Battle
Just felt I needed to post here today.
I finished work at 10.30am this morning (I work night shifts) and I'd pretty much made the decision during my shift that I was going to meet a friend who has recently returned from backpacking around Europe.
From 12 - 6pm I paced round my house, and for the first time since my sober date, (14/6) I actually felt a physical craving which led to some impromptu salivation at one point!
I identified the triggers which are: my best friend's return (my main drinking partner), the sun was shining and I'm off work tomorrow.
I felt very sad that I had to call my friend and make my excuses. I know for a fact he'd want to drink, so I wrestled myself and decided that my sobriety needed to come first on this occasion. He was not best pleased. Moreover, I don't want to be forever running away from social events and hiding away from the real world.
A bitter sweet victory today I guess.
P/s Apologies if this post is a little scattered, my brain feels foggy due to the blow for blow slugging match I've had with my AV.