Landed face first
Ok I have lurked enough hiding in my self pity and shame.
I crashed and once again underestimated how chronic of an Alcoholic I am.
I binged for the last week and am to the point that eating food is not even appealing, when I eat I feel like hell, when I drink I feel like hell.
Not even sure if I posted this, but I did manage to get to my first AA. I was not sober but was welcomed with the most awesome people. Managed to walk to the front and get my chip and have a panic attack.
I listened and cried, I am most definitely going back. First it's detox time. I want to go back sober out of respect for the program members. I could tell the lady beside me was not comfortable with my smell. Yikes
All good, I must remain positive and keep my humor Only things that's keeping me from buying a long rope. LOL!