You can make it past day 4. Try something you've not tried before. Realize that you can do it. There are so many books out there to help, programs, meetings. Changing ways of coping, reactions to your environment... seeing new ways of looking at the same old things. When we get sober, we are forced out of our comfort zones. It's not going to feel natural or easy at first. It can be hard and sometimes painful. But it's well worth it. You CAN do it.