Seriously!!!
Can't even make it passed 4 days. I wake up so angry at myself, hang over sucks and as day goes on my mind changes into stupid thoughts like "I can quit tomorrow, just one drink, ahh alcohol looks do good I so want a drink". I've been back and forth here for years. Don't get me wrong SR is amazing and I love knowing I can come back and be welcomed back. I'm just upset at myself and venting. I always get asked what I will do differently this time and I feel like I've tried everything. AA, changing environments, return to gym... Well it's day one again and I have a band meeting tonight. I've at least already informed them that I probably won't be drinking at it and they're cool. Thanks for listening. To all American friends Happy 4th of July,
Best,
Copperfield.