Thank you both for your replies. I think right now I am stuck in the mentality of hopelessness that nothing will improve in my life. I haven't drank today and have felt extremely depressed. Dwelling on the past, hating alcohol, wondering what to do with my life and if I will ever meet anyone. On and on and on.
Seems like these things come so easily to everyone else. Cow are you sure EVERYONE has felt this way at one point? Least, you are right that i need to get out of my own head. Just not sure how because my usual coping mechanism (wine) has always been my only relief when i start to feel like this.
How did people get through the first period of sobriety?