K8, everybody else has feel like this, okay? EVERYBODY. Listen, you still very young. You not want to get stuck in this state for 10, 20, 30 more year and still be in same boat. Get sober, then get a life. You really can no do it other way round. Every day you drink as diversion to you unhappiness is another day you staying unhappy. Would it no at least be better to know that every day you taking a step toward happiness? No, it not gonna happen next week. But at least you be moving toward it, yes?