Originally Posted by Nuudawn

For me, the time I spend on here is very much about the "problem" of drinking for both myself and others. It keeps me connected to the "problem" of it rather than the drinking itself. I know that I can while away too much time here but for right now...I need to fill the lonely spaces. And it helps with that. I wasn't really doing anything all that productive when I was drinking really. And at this moment, although I am before my laptop, I drove into the city at 9 p.m. so that I may spend tomorrow (which is July 1st Canada Day for me) with a friend. I'm staying at my brother's oceanside apartment in the sky. I know I'm going to wake up early and get a full day in. I'm quite certain I would not be here if still drinking. It would've taken far too much organization as I decided last minute. I would have settled in with a bottle of wine after work...and probably wouldn't have done a damn thing with my tomorrow.